this is how it happens
my phone rang
when me n jac were happily eating mc Donalds. . .
my phone rang
when me n jac were happily eating mc Donalds. . .
Mdm Wong : harlo shen wen ah, where are u now?
Shen Wen : Parkson , y?
Mdm Wong : ohh, shen wen , u FAILED ur exam
Shen Wen : mm ok.* crying*
Mdm Wong : are u okay? will this affect your feeling for ur vacation?
Shen Wen : NO. dont worry (i am a BIG FAT LIAR )
Mdm Wong : the other 4 friends of urs passed
Shen Wen : mm ok * cry harder *
Mdm Wong : you failed one session, the whole paper failed, it's because u hav a stricter examiner
Shen Wen : mm. * cry even harder *
Shen Wen : Parkson , y?
Mdm Wong : ohh, shen wen , u FAILED ur exam
Shen Wen : mm ok.* crying*
Mdm Wong : are u okay? will this affect your feeling for ur vacation?
Shen Wen : NO. dont worry (i am a BIG FAT LIAR )
Mdm Wong : the other 4 friends of urs passed
Shen Wen : mm ok * cry harder *
Mdm Wong : you failed one session, the whole paper failed, it's because u hav a stricter examiner
Shen Wen : mm. * cry even harder *
i know i am prepared for it
but who on earth can not to be sad when u were informed
that u've failed an exam
that u hope so much that u can just hv a PASS
thanks jac for accompanying me all the way
i know she's always there for me
she is the best person to listen to that terrible news with me
then
i went home
and i cry and cry and cry and cry
i know god will give me the best thing
i will NOT doubt his decision
but
WHY?
what's the benefit behind ?
i wasted my dad's RM799 and countless fees
what about my mum's car petrol money??
and my teacher's hope on me?
i feel really sad
to the extend that i cant find a reason to smile
if u know me well
u will know i am really depress this time
i feel like giving up
i know i shouldn't think about that
i hate people giving up
then why myself cant stop to think of it.
i am dissapointed.
why am i still dancing when i am not gifted with talent AT ALL ?
i prayed
then
i slept
************************************************************
i had terrible dreams
1st dream
i failed my ballet exam
in my dream
i treated everyone so badly
i dun allow any of my ballet fren to approach me
because i tink i hav the right to do so
i failed
2nd dream
i gav up myself
i dun even want to dance properly in the class
again
i think i have the right
because
i failed
3rd dream
(this is a bit ridiculous)
someone rush into my ballet classroom
telling me that i even failed my SPM !
i get B s for my bio n sejarah @@
********************************************************
then i woke up
and
i dun want my dreams to come true
miraclely
i feel that failing is nt everything
i finally understand
not only knowing
but
REALLY UNDERSTAND
that
god is preparing me for something
this is something i must go through
without failing
i will not improve
because i never fail anything
that's y i never know how to stand up
yes. i failed. but i am now standing up.
thanks god
i know
you. work. in. your. way.
dear father,
please be with me when i fall
wipe my tears away and replace it with a smile
let me be strong
and always give thanks to you no matter how terrible it is.
i know you love me lord
you will not allow trials which i couldn't bear to fall on me.
help me lord.
in jesus's name
Amen
p.s : thanks yi jun and jac again, you two are really sweet =)
but who on earth can not to be sad when u were informed
that u've failed an exam
that u hope so much that u can just hv a PASS
thanks jac for accompanying me all the way
i know she's always there for me
she is the best person to listen to that terrible news with me
then
i went home
and i cry and cry and cry and cry
i know god will give me the best thing
i will NOT doubt his decision
but
WHY?
what's the benefit behind ?
i wasted my dad's RM799 and countless fees
what about my mum's car petrol money??
and my teacher's hope on me?
i feel really sad
to the extend that i cant find a reason to smile
if u know me well
u will know i am really depress this time
i feel like giving up
i know i shouldn't think about that
i hate people giving up
then why myself cant stop to think of it.
i am dissapointed.
why am i still dancing when i am not gifted with talent AT ALL ?
i prayed
then
i slept
************************************************************
i had terrible dreams
1st dream
i failed my ballet exam
in my dream
i treated everyone so badly
i dun allow any of my ballet fren to approach me
because i tink i hav the right to do so
i failed
2nd dream
i gav up myself
i dun even want to dance properly in the class
again
i think i have the right
because
i failed
3rd dream
(this is a bit ridiculous)
someone rush into my ballet classroom
telling me that i even failed my SPM !
i get B s for my bio n sejarah @@
********************************************************
then i woke up
and
i dun want my dreams to come true
miraclely
i feel that failing is nt everything
i finally understand
not only knowing
but
REALLY UNDERSTAND
that
god is preparing me for something
this is something i must go through
without failing
i will not improve
because i never fail anything
that's y i never know how to stand up
yes. i failed. but i am now standing up.
thanks god
i know
you. work. in. your. way.
dear father,
please be with me when i fall
wipe my tears away and replace it with a smile
let me be strong
and always give thanks to you no matter how terrible it is.
i know you love me lord
you will not allow trials which i couldn't bear to fall on me.
help me lord.
in jesus's name
Amen
p.s : thanks yi jun and jac again, you two are really sweet =)
